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(no subject) [Oct. 30th, 2004|11:34 pm]
[mood |in love]

I'd melt for you....
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(no subject) [Oct. 30th, 2004|11:08 am]
[mood |shockedshocked]

I'm sad. and confused. and everything else. and i'm not at all sure what to do about it.
It'd be so much easier if you could just kno what people are thinking or how they feel. Or atleast if everyone just HAD to be honest. Then wouldnt everyone be happier? Maybe not. i dunno. I guess only time will tell now...

....as long as you know i love you.
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(no subject) [Oct. 29th, 2004|05:00 pm]
[mood |irritatedirritated]

bad day. actually scratch that, bad week.
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(no subject) [Oct. 20th, 2004|06:09 pm]
[mood |soresore]

sorry ladies, i have taken the only male in the world worth having.
I guess i should start by telling of my experience of yesterday. So me and justin are hanging out. and i dropped him off at NFA. His dad was on his way to pick him up from there. So i'm driving home and i'm on like pierces road or something like that and i went around a sharp turn. it was rainy and my car started to slide. and i couldnt get control of it and a car came. and we collided head on. I got out of the car and some woman that worked in a near by building rushed out and tried calming me down because i was screaming and i begged her to check on the people in the other car. Then i went anc called my dad, who was with out a car at the moment, so i called justin who had his father drive and pick up my dad. the police came and ambulances and firemen. all for me. i felt so bad. and they took the woman and her son in the other car in the ambulance first, i was still in hysterica. my face was bleeding and i was scareaming for them to tell me if everyone else was ok. finally the paramedics had to take me so they strapped me down to a stretcher and took me to st lukes where my dad, justin, and justins dad met me. they had to do an EKG and x ray. but i was ok other than a few bumps and bruises and a really scratched up face (and the worst fat lip ever!). but justin and his father stayed with me and my dad the whole time which i thought was the sweetest thing in the world. so they released me. honestly, ive never been so scared in my life. i was shaking all night. not even because of me but i couldnt stop thinking... like what if i hadnt dropped off justin and he had gotten hurt? or what if the ppl in the other car got hurt? how could i live then? i dunno. im still shaken up but other than that, im ok.
Justin came over after 5th period today to stay with me.. which again is the sweetest thing in the world. noone will ever understand how much he means to me. not many ppl would do that for just me. but anyway, i'm ok. everyone else was ok (other than my poor poor car). well thanks to all my friends for checking up on me today. it means so much.

drive safe lol
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i dont like this day.... [Sep. 20th, 2004|07:47 pm]
[mood |sadsad]

I'm not really sure why, but i woke up 30 mins before i had to shower this morning with the worst feeling. I just wanted to curl up in my bed, cry, and then fall back to sleep under my blankets. But i couldnt even close my eyes. So i lied there staring at my ceiling and wishing the day was over already until my alarm went off.

School wasnt bad, just any old day. Justin and i hung out for awhile and went to the park which was really nice until some creepy old man stared us down, so we were out.

Then justin brought up me having to go to college next year. and i know, i'm supposed to be like excited right? but i'm so scared. like, a dead state of paranoia to the point where i'd almost rather not go to college, be broke forever, work at like mcdonalds all my life, and live on the streets of newburgh. i dont even know why but the very thought of it makes me cry. i guess ive kinda grown confortable in how things are and i know nothing will be the same. i'm an idiot huh? everyone else is all psyched and i'm ready to bury myself into a hole or shoot myself in the face. oy. ok enough rambling from me. sorry to all of those who wasted their time on this entry.
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(no subject) [Sep. 7th, 2004|05:00 pm]
[mood |lonelylonely]
[music |"Warmth of the Sand" -Dashboard]

School. Sucks. Alot.
So today was the first day back. My first day in the life of a senior. You'd think i'd be happy about that, no not so much. It just means that things are changing. And i don't "do" change well. at all.
Yesterday i spent the day with Justin (duh) and we went to the mall. then to kick off the last day of summer we went to our special spot down by the river and hung out and took some pictures. I couldnt have asked for a better way to say goodbye to the summer. I was real upset tho that it was over, and of course for those who know me well, i cried. It was just such a perfect summer i hate saying goodbye to it. Then took the J-man home. Got the best last kiss of the summer. Tears were shed, it felt like i was leaving or something. I dunno, we're such losers. but how i love him. Anyhow, then we talked on the phone til midnight.
Now here i sit, after the first day of school. I suppose it went well. As good as it could be for NFA. If i didnt miss summer so much, i guess i wouldve considered it a good day. I like my classes. Psychology's a great class and so is AP Lit and Journalism. I'm not crazy about my dimwitted Economics teacher, but maybe my first impression is incorrect. Have to wait and see. Then after school of course went over to justins for a little while.And here i am. Waiting to just do it all over again tomorrow.
One more day of summer. Then I'd be happy. :(
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school.... ick [Sep. 3rd, 2004|12:48 pm]
1- Forensics COOPER
3- AP American Gov/Pol RIEFENHAUSER
8- Journalism CARMICHAEL
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my throat is very flemmy [Sep. 1st, 2004|04:00 pm]
[mood |sick as shit]

alright so i'm sick, yet again. does it ever end? no. well its my fault cuz when i had a bad sore throat a couple of weeks ago i didnt get it looked at. soo it went away a little but now has returned with a vengence. i finally went to see my doctor yesterday cuz the pain was unbearable and id wake up with a very, mucus filled thoat (sounds attractive eh?). So she said basically, im a step away from having mono. that if i had come any later, it wouldve escalated into mono and if im not better by friday i have to go in for blood work. yay me. and on top of that i have a sinus infection and bad allergies. again, yay. well thats it. im done, im going to sulk.
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(no subject) [Aug. 29th, 2004|01:37 am]

Copy and paste this list into ur lj, bold all the things that are true to you, and add 3 things (in bold) about yourself thats not already on the list.

01. I have a cell phone.
02. I'm obsessed with high heels.
03. I'm the youngest child.
04. I am a shopoholic.
05. I love hoop earrings.
06. I am a libra.
07. I love vodka.

Re:: [Note....there was no 8....why?]

09. I can't live without lip gloss.
10. I can't live without music.
11. I lived in Purgatory for 3 months.
12. I spend money I don't have.
13. I'll be in college forever.
14. I've seen Jason Mraz.
15. I get annoyed easily.
16. I eventually want kids.
18. I have more then a couple of horrible memories.
19. I am addicted to Lizzie McGuire.
20. I am a person
21. My first kiss was when I was 18.
22. I start film school in February.
23. I love taking pictures.
24. I hate girls who are fake.
25. I can be mean when I want to.
26. My dreams are bizarre.
27. One of my close friends is gay.
28. I have way too many purses.
29. I've seen 'Fight Club' at least 45 times.
30. I usually dress how I feel that day.
31. I love Sex and the City!
32. Sometimes I cry for almost no reason.
33. I hate when people are late.
34. I procrastinate.
35. I love winter.
36. I have too many clothes for my closet/dresser.
37. I love to sleep.
38. I wish I were smarter.
39. I am afraid of flying.
40. I hate drama.
41. I am addicted to 'The O.C.'
42. I love my hair.
43. I never fight with my parents.
44. I love the beach.
45. I have never had the chicken pox.
46. I'm excited for the future.
47. I can't control my emotions.

48. I can't wait till New Year's.
49. I love the show 'Rich Girls'.
50. I love my friends.
51. Christmas is my favorite holiday.
52. I can be very insecure sometimes.
53. I have never broken a bone.
54. I hate racism.
55. I hate my computer.
56. I love guys that play the guitar.
57. I state the obvious.
58. I'm a happy person.
59. I love to dance.
61. I hate cleaning my room.
62. I tend to get jealous very easily.
63. I love cute underwear.
64. I love John Mayer.
65. I cry when I see animals/people getting hurt/abused.
66. I want to go to Greece.
67. I don't like to study for tests.
68. I love God.
69. I am too forgiving.
70. I have a horrible sense of direction.
71. I love(d) high school.
72. I have a talent of sweet-talking my way out of things.
73. I'm a daddy's girl.
74. I love kisses.
75. I love the color pink.
76. I love to sew.
77. I have green eyes.
78. I love the Olsen Twins.
79. I played soccer for 14 years.
80. I become stressed easily.
81. I hate liars.
82. I like comfy sweatpants.
83. Paul Walker is my dream guy.
84. I love the smell of asphalt after it's rained.
85. I love my family.
86. I hate needles
87. I am a perfectionist.
88. I always wanted to learn to play the drums.
90. I am still a virgin.
91. I would love to have my own fashion line.
92. I can be quite selfish.
93. I still act like a little kid.
94. Above all, I despise dishonesty.
95. I love pictures.
96. I love music.
97. I wish I were more motivated when it comes to school.
98. I love getting stuff in the mail.
99. I have a hard time letting go of people.
100. I hate the feeling of being alone.
101. I want to be an actress when i "grow up".
102. I can trust my friends with my life.
103. I love to smile and laugh.
104. I want to be a nurse when I grow up.
105. Red, white and black are my favorite colors.
106. I want to go to UCLA for college.
107. I hate when people ask if I'm on my period.
108. I'm terrible at keeping New Year's Resolutions.
109. I love doodling and writing inside my notebooks' covers.

110. i want to be a writer

111. i love driving

112. i love being in love

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(no subject) [Aug. 28th, 2004|11:48 am]
school starts way too soon.

i have to clean my car, badly.

napoleon dynamite is the best movie ever made.

my boyfriend dances like the actor in the above stated movie.

my aunt whipped out every embarassing baby picture she had to show justin last night.

i was an ugly baby.

i am done.

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